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What does it feel like, when sometimes you feel that even the closest people around don't understand you.
Your best friends have drifted away, and they scorn you, not recognising who you are anymore or the good times you've had over the years.
What does it feel like, when the things you do don't seem to be right, unappreciated and unreciprocated. Nice try, though.
When things just don't happen the way you wish it to.
As if you had a choice.
You feel like getting away from everything, pack your bags and leave..

Welcome to my life.

Hi friends and strangersz, welcome to my blog! Congrats on wasting 10 mins of your life if you even bother to read. That being said, if you know me, drop a comment and say hi ! Just remembered i actually have a blog and said i'll try to keep it alive. So much for that..



Guess whos back ?


Really cliche, but time really passes. The good times, the bad times, and the shit times.

The year began with the Re-papers, which determines whether i get promoted or not. Was pretty fucked cos i failed yet again, but holey mama i got yet another chance at CT1, where i barely made it. Barely made it to another level of hell, congratulations to me. The work was shit and i dont need to say more, but thanks to all my friends who made life so much more enjoyable and worth coming to school for. Honestly, i wouldnt know what to do if i didnt have friends like that, that would cut class together(way too much) and slack in the canteen for hours when we're supposed to be having some lectures.

I remember at one period of time, i really hate VJC. I hated it to the fuckin core. I regretted signing the dsa form, if not i would have ended up in CJC instead. Everything i do didnt seem to make it better, and the frequent ''tea sessions'' with the HOD and subject heads and teachers in charge didnt help at all. It made me more sore and i really felt like giving up after my prelims results, like fuck school altogether, fuck A levels, whats the point of it all, the crazy mad chase for a stupid piece of laminated paper. But once again, many many thanks to some of my teachers and friends who really do care, i managed to pull through.

I cant believe i survived it. During O levels i was thinking, how the fuck am i supposed to go through this again? Now that everything is over, Im kind of missing school.. ahhhh fuck, tis the shit times.


07a14 early last year/                                                                     07a14 on our last day of school


our side of the class                                                                        everyday is racial harmony


kang, gomez, me                                                                               same shit


VJCSB batch photo in NYC                                                            TAE club + exco = taeco


exco + Maestro Tan                                                                          Carnegie Hall


I dont know if i've ever ben a good friend to anyone, maybe because friendship is too much about the past. Do you know what ever happened to what was his name? Do you remmber the time? Soon we'll be too busy getting on with life. Who has time to look back? Friendship is easier when it has no history, no time for broken promises and all the little piques that fill a running tally sheet. Quoted that mostly from "The Soloist", but it makes some sense doesnt it? I dont wish that to happen, but i guess that is how reality works. I've made quite a bunch of friends over the years; acquantances, colleagues, good friends and friends/bros for life. But when we say i'll be your friend forever and nothing is going to change that, are we really able to commit to that? Im willing. Friends make up a bit part of my life and its something i cannot do without.

Dont think, just do. Life's too short to consider.

Since the A's ended, i've spent most of my time going out. Going overseas, meeting friends, chilling out and what not, parties after parties, and more partying. I havent really thought much about what i want to do with my life. But one things for sure, im not going to continue this lifestyle for another 4 months before i become a slave. Im going to do things that are more productive, that are more enriching. This doesnt mean i'll stop partying though..cos the party never stops! But ay okay im cutting down. SERIOUS! 10000 things i wanna do. First, i gotta clear up my room and then organise everything neatly and draw up a schedule. hmmm sounds like a plan.

Lately, i've been in a rather pensive mood, thinking bout some things that has been troubling me for some time. Im not sure what to do, whether to just go for it or give it up for now. Im not sure if thats what i really want, or if the time is right. I dont want to make it awkward or disappoint myself. Yet i feel like i want something good out of it and i'll give it my all. Maybe im thinking too much. I guess time can only tell, but what if its too late? Or should i just heed my own advice above..

Whatever it is, im hoping and praying for the best.


In short, 2008 has been a rollercoaster ride of emotions. Theres a tinge of bittersweet as it draws to an end. Hints of regrets of things that we have done and things that we should have done. All we can do now is look back at those moments as part of our life history and make good out of it. Nevrtheless, we'll all start afresh a new year into a very different phase of our lifes. Boys become men, girls start work and then university. New people, new environments, new experiences. I hope everyone will find their purpose and goal in life (gomez, not your goal for everyone) sooner or later, find true love, peace and happiness, and be a better self.


                                                    
                                                                                    -xoxo jiawei, 31/12/2008, 6:25am

HOKAY.

3 weeks to A's,

Holey mama!

Sometimes when i slack and dont study, i feel so guilty that... i dont feel guilty at all.

Bet all ya people have experienced it before !

I just felt like saying something irrelevent,

So im back to econs now

Bye :)

i did badly.  yes even at prelims

so stop asking me bout my grades as if knowing it would help yours.

or worse, make you feel good (just fuck off if thats you)

even if youre my friend and are really concerned.

its just annoying having EVERYONE ask the same question whenever i see them, in person or online.

i know what i gotta do. and i dont need your sympathy.

if you happen to do well or good enough, well, good for you.

im happy for you. i really am. keep up the work guys.

just get off my back


<3,
jiawei

prelims are shit.
although it lasts slightly more than a week, everyday is like forever man...damn
4 more papers to go

i wonder if people are still reading this blog. heck, its more for myself, haha i dont update it often anyway




And we don't care about the young folks





I aint got a thing to prove to you
,so
Excuse my manners if I make a scene


awesome songs with awesome videos hahaha at least i like em, who cares if you dont!
they're my best companions during the papers,

esp pork n beans. i want to do the things that i want to do, like get A levels over and done with and then apply to berklee, and try out for auditions. damn thats what i want to do right now.

i dont want to struggle to get into a university doing subjects i probably have no interest in, and then struggle 3-4 years again to get my grades. its all about securing a future, they say. but is doing music really that hopeless? i dont really care that much bout it. who says the music industry cant offer a good life? it may not, but i know i will like it. you only live once, so do the things you really want, esp your career since its gonna be a long term decision. i dont wanna regret not doing what i want.

i may be wrong..but i hope im not.

2 days to prelims
25 days to the end of it

72 days to A levels 
89 days to the end of it

92 days to taiwan trip( with kang&chia & s61 people!)

101 days to SDD and post prom


damn.. ive not been out late for quite a long time. kinda miss having fun with friends, drinking and partying.. drinking mainly, cos its the most fun getting high with friends! simply cant wait for it all to end

list of things to do after exams:
1) Get my driving license
2) Get a good bike (any recommendations? budget is a few hundred dollars.)
3) Reconstruct my pedal board
4) Practice bass, write stuff and jam and hopefully gig
5) House parties !! And more parties!
6) I want my bali trip, still
7) Learn how to play keyboards
8) Learn vocal techniques
9) Learn how to DJ
10) Kayak
11) Alot more to think of when i have the time...


(boy ah, study hard like fuck! dont think about all these shit now know!)

okay. fuck.

who didnt dream of making it big, playing big gigs, getting famous, the chicks, and the dough ?

i did.

and im still dreaming


its a little more than a year since our last gig. and we havnt jammed since then. everybody is so tied up with school commitments and studying, that theres hardly time to even meet for dinner/lunch or to chill abit. no time to even practice, so the cases have collected quite a lot of dust already. damn

just 3 months plus more, and we'll be rockin the shit out til the neighbours complain!

i've posted this previously but i thought its quite interesting so imma post it up again hahah


mygawd! hahaha this is gay when you look at it now aint it? our first gig at orchard of hope, in sec2 i think. check out da kewl uniform we had and the shittiest of gears we were using..oh and those were the days when punk rock, really rocks! but then again, those days have passed, we all make mistakes. hahaha


okay, slightly better, but my hair is klassic. hahaha shites. umm, fishbone gig 2 years back i think. not too bad. i remember we went to dxo to watch terrence and the vinyl summer afterwards. mmmm


soundcheck for chma last year, our last gig. was damn fun haha though we all didnt felt like playing 10mins before our set cos we drank and got so high and stoned afterwards hahaha.

me and jon took the same position since we started out man..always beside each other. HAHA fcukin gay it sounds!

we've changed and looked different over the years..
ours gears have also been different. upgrades !

jon was using a borrowed fernandes guitar(i think so) from the security guard uncle hahaha his name was roger. he had a guitar then but it was soo lousy.
next, changes to an ibanez and now using a fender stratocaster, with a bunch of awesome pedals

i used a fcukedup 200dollars cort special bass. it was really damn 'special' la, cos which other shit bass's strap pin falls off halfway? then i bought my baby boy, the warwick rockbass fortress! boy?? just look at the picture and you'll know why la. i almost wanted to sell him away, ALMOST. heng i nvr sell man, cos this is a treasure! signature warwick growl and killer tone, good feel, and just about everything i was looking for in a bass.
then last year i bought my other baby, the MIJ 70's reissue fender jazz bass, walnut finishing with matching headstock! sweeeeeet. and a bunch of pedals too. i'll post them up someday la lazy to load the pics

my next big purchase? i dont know if i have the cash for this.. but im really digging the design and specs of this lakland decade.


im thinking of a full black body with matching headstock... wicked man

OKAY,, back to rockstar dreams.

videos of the chma gig:


plug in baby - muse


rainmaker - iron maiden


the scientist/fix you - coldplay 

kudos to the imedia crew that year for producing these video. thanks!

here is us again!

ming xuan, me, feng heng, jenn champ, jon. dinner. see that bottle of wild turkey ? one of the culprits of the night.. sorry la we were damn hungry and thirsty and we decided to quench it first... with wild turkey and jack daniels..and then eat. not very smart, dont try it!

hello





this is monogramme.


sidenote,

i always feel hesistant when people ask me what is my band called. well..to be honest, i dont really like the name, and hahaha neither do the guys. so why the fuck did we choose that name in the first place ?! dont know sia. ANYWAY, any suggestions for a band name? ;) preferably not too gay like the flower five or we-cut-ourselves-and-be-emo.


running in circles, chasing tails
coming back as we are